Funny Poetry About Sex

Must finish philosophy homework before watching Merlin! Gah, but who wants to read an entire article about torture? I sure don't.



Anywho, I'm still alive for Humans vs. Zombies. Got a guy I know since last year, but he's not planning on playing as a zombie so I really just helped him quit the game. Works for me though! And I saved a couple of my friends.

I just came back from a meeting of the literary magazine of the college I go to. I submitted a few poems and once again they've all been shot down. I was hoping we would talk about it but since they didn't even get enough votes for Round One, we didn't discuss. I was really hoping to find out why they didn't like my poems. I was confused on what they were looking for, what they find interesting...until today. Apparently, the ones that get an automatic yes (have enough votes to surpass the rounds and just gets put into the book without discussion) are the funny ones, the ones about sex, the ones about penises, the ones that are funny and about penises, and the super philosophical ones.



I don't write any of those types of poems. I don't think I ever will. I might try a "philosophical" one but it's just not my style. I feel like I'll never be able to get my poems in the book because I don't write what the board finds interesting. I'm not funny. Plain and simple. I don't and won't write about penises. I might write about sex but it will probably not be obvious or what I'm writing about will symbolize sex. I don't know.

I submitted ones about love, an imagery poem about a fallen angel being trapped, and something else that right now I can't remember. But the ones I mentioned were my favorite and I thought they would like. But apparently not.

I'm not going to give up though. Just because they don't like it doesn't mean others don't either. But this constant rejection from not only the literary magazine but life in general is really getting me down.

Saturday: Zombies Continue

I noticed I forgot to mention class registration. That was a week or so ago. Remember that sociology class, History of Social Thought? Yeah, I didn't get in but neither did Jane. I'm not sharing any classes with her either so yay for that! I just don't have time for people copying my work. What classes I am taking are Writing Fiction, Seminar on Creative Writing: Poetry, Social Statistics, and Romantic Literature. Plus two PE courses of bowling and social dance. It's going to be a busy semester come January.

Now to today: With me being a zombie I have to feed/tag someone at least every 30 hours or I die of starvation and become a corpse. I ended up tagging one of my friends so I have until tomorrow at 8pm before I'm dead. You can join a pack of zombies and share your kills so if one of my friends gets someone they'll share with me and I'll stay alive a bit longer, and vice versa. It's hilarious though. Everyone is running and screaming. We cornered this one guy but we were going to let him go 'cause he just wanted to eat dinner but another zombie came behind him and tagged him. Poor kid.

Went to see the movie Friends with Benefits, which they were showing here on campus. It was a pretty good movie. I enjoyed it. Made me wonder would I be willing to do that and I realized no. Even if it wasn't sex, like I just made out with the guy, I still don't think I would do it. I would probably become emotionally attached. No, I know I would.

Is it sad that I consider it? But I don't want just the physical. I actually do want to be in a real relationship. I've never been in a relationship, or been on a date. I feel kind of pathetic really. I don't understand what's wrong with me. One guy in high school said he had doubts or whatever, and the one here in college freshman year wasn't over his ex. But if you're not over her, why come to me? And then the guys I'm attracted to because of their personality and looks, they want nothing to do with me. Actually, they end up liking one of my friends. She is literally boy crazy. Every time she thinks a guy is cute, she'll go into stalker mode and obsesses about him for weeks. Then she'll find another guy she likes and it continues. It annoys me, but I'd never say that.

I just...I want to meet a guy who likes to hang out with me, just chat, watch movies, just everyday stuff, even study together. I'd like to cuddle on the couch while we watch Pirates of the Caribbean or Harry Potter. I'd like to be able to look at him and he'll give me his goofy smile and I can't help but smile back. I'd like to know everything I could possibly know about him and he about me. I'd like him to trust me with his secrets and dreams, and I'd like to share my dreams with him. Is that too much?

Zombie Dance

I missed another Thursday but I have legit reasons. Also, I wanted to post yesterday but I ended up going to a party last night, so I have much to say on that. Plus, I need to tell you about tonight (no party). There's just so much that I feel like I'll post twice: one for Thursday/Friday and one for Saturday (today). Here goes the first ones:

Thursday I was super busy writing my English paper which has now been extended to Monday. Hooray! I feel like my paper sucks because I went in to talk to the professor about it on Wednesday and she told me that it seemed like I didn't have anything to say, and that it was "high school style" because it was only 5 paragraphs. I didn't plan on it being 5 paragraphs. Anywho, I rewrote it that night, sent her my ideas on it, and then went to the writing center on Thursday for editing and such. Then I get the email that at least 3 students are rewriting and she was giving us until Monday to finish it. It makes me wonder if she thinks my new paper is horrid too.

Friday I ended up not going to my sociology class. I was so tired from reading and writing the paper Thursday night that I overslept. I did go to my philosophy class. Oh! On my campus we're playing Humans vs. Zombies. We just started Friday morning. I stayed a human for 8 hours. It was terrible! I survived going to philosophy but after I came out, a girl ran across the quad towards me and I threw a sock at her, stunning her. But when I went through the halls to my dorm, a kid came out of the stairwell and tagged me. Gah! I was so upset! One of my friends was tagged way before me, so we decided to go human hunting together. I got my first "kill" today by getting one of my friends. Oh, I'll talk about that in my next post.

Friday night...Last friday night yeah we danced on table tops...Well, I didn't. I saw some other people do it. I went to a frat party. One of my friends is a pledge and it was a party celebrating all the new pledges so I went to support and to have some fun. I get there, it's more of a drinking party than a dancing party. A majoriy of my friends who went were paired off in couples and drunk off their minds. I don't drink, don't see the point, so I was a bit annoyed and didn't really want to be around a bunch of people. I was planning on leaving but one of my non-drunk friends asked me to go dance with her upstairs cause she didn't want to dance alone. I went. Danced a bit.

Long story short: dealt with a bunch of drunks, danced with a random person I didn't know for about 2 minutes then we were separated, asked a guy I liked to dance but he was too tired from wrestling with one of his "brothers" to dance, the other guy I really really wanted to dance with had guard duty..again, met a nice guy named Bobby who's a psych major and vice-pres of the martial arts club here (he's pretty cool. Didn't talk long. I know my zombie friend made him go dance with me), and had to watch as Jane danced with Steve again for like an hour or so until 3 in the morning and I didn't want to stay any longer so I took my drunk zombie friend back to his dorm while Jane stayed with Steve and one of my friends.

All in all, not a good night. I didn't really want to be there. I wanted to leave after the first 15 minutes. I ended up staying for 4 hours. 4 hours of depression.

If you want to read about today's happenings, give me a minute to type. Please and thank you!

Season Finales Always Get Me

I just finished season one of Merlin. I started crying ten minutes into the last episode.

And never stopped.

Good Mood Down the Toilet

Holy Fuck Shit!

There goes my good mood. Jane, one of my roommates, just came up to me asking if I was taking the sociology class "History for Social Thought". I'm pretty sure (no, a hundred percent sure) she knows I'm planning on it since it is a required class for one my majors.

Well now her ass wants to take it. I don't want to take another class with her. She doesn't do work, and she thinks all of these other classes are not important enough like her science classes. She'll be wanting to see/read what I have, work with me, and I'm not doing that again! I'm not doing her work for another semester. I refuse.

When I didn't seem thrilled about her possibly joining me she wanted to know if I was mad. Of course I'm mad! But I said I was preoccupied and wasn't listening.

Ugh...what will be worse is...if she gets into the class and I don't, I'm going to be pissed the hell off because she doesn't need this class. And she'll most likely complain and complain all semester and I'm just going to want to punch her in the face.

Merlin is My Life

I have many things to write on this rainy Thursday, so I won't be answering any questions today.

1. I've started watching BBC's Merlin on Hulu. It's such an amazing show! When it first came out, I watched the first two episodes but then I forgot about it (I think it was on Sundays and I don't want a lot of television on Sundays). But I've found it again thanks to one of my friends. I'm watching episode 9 of season one right now. I have a feeeling I'll be done with both seasons by the end of next week, maybe earlier. Merlin has taken over my life!

2. Remember that midterm I was worrying about? I got an A-. Awesome right?! And the paper for one of my English classes, another A-. And last but not least, my SCE for my philosophy class, an A+. I'm on a roll right now!

3. I'm not allowing Jane to get to me anymore. I'm really falling the guidelines my counselor has been giving me. I don't want this to be a miserable year. I'm going to enjoy my college career. High school was horrible for me, but I'm going to make college a thousand times better.

4. I'm going home this weekend. I really need a break from Jane and Cathy. And a break from campus. I haven't been home in two months, and my hair shows. Haha, it's starting to get puffy and hard for a comb to get through it. Plus I want to spend time with my mom and lay in my own bed for once. Even though home isn't all sunshine and rainbows 100% of the time, I still miss it.

5. I'm doing NaNoWriMo. I can't remember if I wrote about that. Plus I'm doing a "Poem A Day" so I'm going to be writing a whole bunch this November. Speaking of writing, I submitted poems to my school's literary magazine. I hope I get in this year. The poems I sent, I really like them. It would be great to see if others enjoy them too.

I'm sure there is more that I wanted to write about, but I can't remember anymore. Oh! I'm glad the glee hiatus is over and I can't wait until the 8th. Jane watched the last episode with me on Tuesday. She talks during it and I miss some of the things. I hope she goes to karate next week so she won't be in the room while I'm watching.

I believe that's it for now. Back to Merlin.

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