Wizard's Duel

I beat someone in a wizard's duel by one point. 

 

You were a worthy opponent and I wish you well my fellow wizard!

Should I be Upset or No?

You see, I’ve had this crush on this guy since the beginning of this school year. Problem is, I rarely see him. I had a class with him last year and then…the end. I only see him around campus or at the fraternity he’s a part of.

I told my roommate Jane about him last year, and she asked if I still liked him this year and I said yes. She has liked this other guy who is also part of the same fraternity as Kevin (the guy I like. Also, I changed his name) since beginning of May. She has classes with Kevin and next semester a majority of her classes will be with him. A month or so ago, she said she was giving up on the guy she likes and focusing more on Kevin.

I’m upset because she knows I like him. She even convinced me to ask him to dance once at a party (didn’t get the chance ‘cause he didn’t show up until the party was basically over). And now she wants to go out with him?

Then again, do I really have a shot? I don’t have opportunities to talk to him, and Jane has and seems to like him now. I’m just really confused, and I want to know if I have the right to be upset, even though I barely know the guy…

So, if anyone reads this, I’d really appreciate it for a comment or two. Even if it’s a “You’re stupid.” At least I’ll have some sort of opinion on this.

Bucket List or Random Facts?

Should I do a list of what’s on my bucket list, or should I make a list of random facts about me?

I’m not sure which one I should do. Any advice? Or do any of you, my lovely followers, have a preference?

(P.S. I'm going to make like 3-4 posts in a row. I made these over the course of the day Tuesday on tumblr, but forgot to post them here. So...yeah...)

Glee Lovers Everywhere

Was on omegle for the first time in forever, and had a long chat with this person "Drew" about Glee. Made my night.




Also talking to one of my friends on the phone while she's on omegle. She's been having some pretty interesting conversations haha

Say Yes to the Dress

I'm watching Say Yes to the Dress right now. Love this show and seeing all the pretty dresses. What surprises me is that, yes I do think about my own future wedding, but what I really think about when I watch this show is:

"I can't wait to see my friends/cousins get married. I hope they let me help them pick out the dress. I hope I'm a bride's maid. What if I'm the maid of honor?! Oh that's a lot of responsibility but I love them, so I'll do whatever I can!"

Is that strange? Don't get me wrong, I do imagine what my wedding dress could look like, but I always seem to think about other people's weddings. I think I just want to go or be part of a wedding. It's so beautiful and it represents so much. I imagine I'll be crying the whole time.

Just thought I'd share that.

(P.S. I didn't mention that I'm home for winter break. First semester and finals are over! Yaaay!)

Hold on to Sixteen: Glee Review

Alright here are my thoughts on tonight's Glee episode.

• Sam's return to glee-Really confused why Finn thought they needed him to be there. Don't get me wrong, I love Sam, but they could have brought him back to McKinley in a different fashion.
• Blaine/Sam drama- NOT COOL. I think Blaine was way out of line on that one, and there was nothing to show that Blaine and Sam are okay now. By the way, how did Blaine know about Sam being a stripper? My only guess is that Rachel told Kurt because she can't hold water, and Kurt told Blaine because Kurt tells Blaine everything. Still, I think what Blaine said was wrong. I love him, but that was wrong.
• Blaine/Finn drama-Ughh...I expected more. That confrontation was really weak and I think Blaine gave in too early. I mean, Finn didn't even say he was sorry for Christ's sake! I wanted them to be friends, but I feel like...after episodes of tension...they could have done something better than that.
• Quinn- Finally, she's grown up! I've been waiting for her to realize that what she was doing was wrong. Her change of heart at the end was nice, a little "Woah, that's a huge change" but it was nice.
• Samcedes- I'm a fan. I'm hoping it will pull through. Not much to say on that one.
• Tina/Mike- Thank you for finally having Mr. Chang see the light! Mike Chang is amazing and everyone should know it. Tina, you are a goddess for making Mr. Chang see the light. I'm glad you finally got to sing. I hope they use your character more often. Again, love Mike Chang and Tina.

The performances were great. I loved them all. I do think I liked the Trouble Tone's performance better than New Directions, but hey, I'm glad they all go together at the end. The ending song "We Are Young" was perfect. Overall, it was a good show. Just...Blaine's parts threw me off.

Oh, I am happy to see some character development with him: boxing because he wanted to defend himself after the bullies, creating the fight club. Interesting...Wait, did he make the fight club when he was a freshman?! Cause I have a feeling it wasn't while he was a sophomore. RIB, did you think this through?

This is another Glee Review. Ella signing out!

P.S. Forgot to mention: I wanna punch Sebastian in the face. I <3 Klaine with a passion. Bye!

Friday is a Fun-Day

Today has been a pretty good day. I really had only one class and that was listening to presentations. I did my presentation on Monday. Then my second class was optional but I went anyway to learn about what was going to be on the final. Class lasted less than fifteen minutes.

Afterwards I made some really good brownies and gave some to my friends. I hung out with two of them in another dorm and then went to eat with a few. We ended up staying the DugOut area trying the Sudoku puzzles in the campus newspaper. We were so goofy, and I loved it. I love hanging out with them. Then we came back to my room, set up the gamecube, played some Mario Kart and now we have the Wii set up playing Brawl. I played for a bit but now I'm here at work. It's okay, I enjoyed my night with my friends.

The only downside was that we were supposed to be playing the wii/gamecube starting around four when I was making the brownies but since we were going to use Cathy's tv (which is on Jane's desk) we had to wait until Jane cleaned her area before we could set anything up. She didn't show up until almost seven o'clock. I think Cathy was upset and so was I, but it let me hang out with my friends so I'm okay that it was delayed.

But today is my fun day. It was my last day of classes. Everything is turned in and now I only have two finals: Wednesday and Thursday. Then I'm on the bus home on Thursday afternoon. I'll start studying for my Thursday test (the only one I can study for) tomorrow. Wish me luck!

Glee Review

Another episode of Glee has passed. I'm not spoiler free, so if you haven't seen it or the promo for next week, you might want to skip this post =)

I'll give you a bit of time to decide.

*
**
***
**
*
Good? Alright....AHHHH! Oh my God! So much stuff going on my brain can't handle it. The elections with Hummel v. Slyvester and Hummel v. Pierce. Too much, too much. And only one Hummel one! Poor Kurt. I was surprised he thought about cheating in the election. I read spoilers and at first I didn't believe but then Rachel did it. She stuffed the ballot box. Ruined chances for Kurt and probably herself. Now she has a spot on her permanent record and she's not competing in sectionals?! Holy Neptune.

Then Sue and the man (the dude who has been "dating" Coach Beiste. I haven't remembered his name yet). I can't believe that happened! Sue ruined that relationship...well, Beiste wasn't really helping the situation either, and the poor man was confused. I'm glad Beiste was able to express her feelings in the end but now she's competing against Sue. Soooo much drama there.

Puck had sex with Rachel's mom?! I still can't see why he isn't grossed out by that. I mean, he made out with Rachel...now he's trying to be with her mom? I don't know. And he told Quinn?! He's soo stupid. Doesn't he know she's still crazy and will use that information to show that she's an unfit mother?! She had sex with a student!

Lastly, Santana. I've always loved her, and I love her even more. She's just had it so rough lately. And Finn is trying to help in the only way he can. I give him props for that but I still hate his guts. Santana and her abuela (grandma if you don't know Spanish), that was heartbreaking. I just kept thinking "please accept her please!" She's a strong woman though and she has people who love her for her, so I know she'll make it through everything. She better!

Now for the promo: THANK GOD BLAINE! He's finally confronting Finn on his stupid behavior. No Rachel in sectionals. And....Sam?!? I knew you were coming back but what are you doing?! I never saw that coming. This is going to be a fantastic episode. Until next week this is your Glee Review. Ella signing out!

Man, I'm a few lines away from being halfway done with this paper. Gosh! I don't feel like doing it, especially at four in the morning. I think I'll go to sleep now and wake up at eight. Continue from there. First, I'll make it so I'm on page five...I'll feel more accomplished. I shouldn't have procrastinated this badly. I should have at least read the rest of my articles yesterday or something. My eyes are burning.

I'm going back to campus tomorrow...in like 12ish hours...I don't want to go back. It's just one week of classes and then three days of finals. I come back home on the eighth. I think it's so stupid that I come back for less than two weeks. Why don't we have finals before Thanksgiving and then we get out then and stay out until January? I think that sounds a lot better. I wouldn't mind it.

Need sleep. Sleep sleep sleep. Been listening to classical/violin orchestra music for the past *checks time* eight hours. Holy cheesus! And I don't think any of the songs repeated.

Hmm my mom wants to go to this jewlery shop in the morning...a few hours from now. I have this key necklace but it's not sterling silver so it turned after having it for a few years. So, I've been meaning to buy one that is sterling but kept forgetting. My mom remembered and wanted it to be a surprise/christmas gift but she doesn't know which one I would like. We were looking at a bunch online from macys, kohls, jcpenny, and others. Laughing and horrid looking ones and just enjoying ourselves. Then she told me about this store, so we might go tomorrow. Not sure.

She asked if I wanted to see the Twilight movie today...yesterday? I said I did, but I needed to finish my homework. She would have just dropped me off. She hasn't seen any of the films. I guess I'll wait until after finals when I come home. No one on campus will want to see it with me, and I don't have any friends at home so no asking there. I'll just go by myself like I did with the Glee movie. I don't mind.

My eyes are watering...or bleeding...who knows. I've been staring at a screen and packets of paper for far too long. I wanna watch Merlin. Can't watch Merlin. Probably won't until after finals. How horrid. No, I'll watch next Monday. It's reading day so no classes...yay...maybe I should stop rambling? Yeah...I'll do that.

Research Research Research

My 8-10 page paper is due Monday and I'm still not done reading all the articles I found. I really want to do this:


But I also have a presentation on said paper on that said Monday.

Merlin Episode Reactions

I started season 4 of Merlin yesterday and I'm three episodes in. Here are my ending reactions for the episodes:

4x01:




4x02:





4x03:





I can't even...episode 4x03, my goodness. I've been waiting for it..but I didn't expect it in THAT way. I'm mean, and right after episode 4x02!?!? I want to explain it all but...you know what, I'll just put this here:

***************SPOILERS: READ IF YOU DARE**************

I was bawling my eyes out for Lancelot! I wasn't a huge fan of him. From the beginning I wanted Gwen and Arthur (of course I really want Merthur, but can't have everything in life), and I know enough about the Arthurian legends to know Lancelot causes problems. So when he showed up, I instantly hated him. Then I realized he was the sweetest and most loyal human being on the show and I couldn't hate him! But I didn't want him with Gwen. The fact that he knew Merlin's secret, it made me happy because now Merlin had someone else to talk to besides Gaius.

And then the end of season three, Lancelot and the others become knights. I was so happy! Now Lancelot is really around to help Merlin and I get to see his gorgeous face (He looks like a younger version of Ioan Gruffudd who plays Lancelot in the 2004 film King Arthur with Clive Owen). I like the relationship between Lancelot and Merlin, it's not as beautiful as Gwaine and Merlin, and definitely not as beautiful as Merthur, but it's still enjoyable. And in episode 4x03 they freakin' killed him. They killed him! Right after I finally started to love him, they took him away from me! How could they do that! I cried so hard it was like when I thought Gaius had died at the end of season one. This show will be the death of me. I can see it now.

I Love Gwaine

Didn't realize how much I loved Gwaine until I saw episode 3x11. Hahaha I love the friendship between Gwaine and Merlin. It's not as strong as Merthur, but it's still lovely.





And the interaction between Merlin, Gwaine, and Arthur is wonderfully hilarious.

Thanksgiving

So I was in the city from Wednesday to about a few hours ago, and I didn't have my laptop. Which means....I wasn't able to say Happy Thanksgiving a lot earlier!



So HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!

Random

Got out of class 30 minutes early! Amazingness!

If only I didn't have to watch a movie for my English class and go to said English class tomorrow morning....I could have gone home tonight!

Talking 'til 4am

Last night during work one of my friends and her roommate came to visit me. It was hilarious. They always bring a smile to my face. I got off work at 1am and then my RA came and started talking to us. Basically, we sat outside my RA's room in a circle talking until 4 in the morning, and it was relaxing. Thanks girls!

Silent Treatment from the Roommate: It Begins

I wanted to make sure I was right before I posted this. Took a few hours but it's official: I pissed off my roommate Jane!



Today our argument layout for our philosophy class was due. Keep in mind, this is not a group project and even though we have the same class/professor, it's not at the same time.

Anywho, I looked at this assignment ahead of time and I wrote it Wednesday night and sent it to my professor Thursday morning to look over it. Jane wants to start working on it at 10pm Thursday night. She doesn't even read the section of the article before she goes:

"Oh my God, I don't understand this!...What is he even talking about?....I don't know what I'm supposed to do....What did you do?"

Automatically, I'm pissed. Don't ask for help if you haven't read it. And you're not even asking for help! She does this every time and then basically copies what I already did. So I didn't tell her. I said that I didn't know what I was doing and that I just did blah blah blah and sent it to the professor.

"Oh...What did she say?"

"I don't know. I haven't checked my email. I'm working on my English paper." I said.

5-7 minutes later.

"Have you checked your email?"

No! It's not my fault you have not done your homework. It's not my fault that you waited until the last minute to do it. I did mine. I'm working on something else. Don't try to take up my time with your crap.



I check my email cause she asks again (ahhh!). The professor told me to change a few things. I didn't tell Jane everything. I told her that the argument layout only needs two premises for the conclusion. Why the hell does she walk over and reads over my shoulder to look at my email?

"Oh...What's your conclusion?"

Do your own work! You still haven't read the stupid article! I didn't tell her my conclusion. I told her it was something to do with the last paragraph. I go back to my paper and in the corner of my eye I see her rocking back and forth staring at the article on her laptop going:

"What the hell am I supposed to do?....I have like 10 premises...I'm going to fail...This is stupid. I don't have time for this."

I ignored her. I finished my paper, my readings, and then fixed my argument layout and went to sleep around 1:15am. Since then she hasn't spoken a word to me. She'll talk to Cathy and invite her to go to dinner with her. She just invited her to the Howie Day concert that's going to happen in about 30 minutes.



She can give me the silent treatment all she wants. I stood my ground. I'm not allowing you to copy all my hardwork anymore. If that means no more talking to you, that's fine with me.

Finished Season Two of Merlin!

That was a good one. I can't even express how...Colin Morgan you are beyond amazing. I shall start season three tonight.

MIA Explanation...plus it's Thursday

So I've been missing for a few days and I have some very reasonable explanations. Number One: I'm sick. I've had a sore/scratchy throat for a couple days now but on Tuesday I woke up with coughing, sneezing, and a bit of a runny nose. Sorry for the details (not really). Anywho, I haven't been feeling up to typing. I've been on tumblr though, just catching up on people that I follow.

Reason number two: Exam and a huge paper. My paper is due tomorrow and I'm only halfway done. Gah! I shouldn't have procrastinated but that's part of the job description of being a college student...well, any sort of student really.

Reason three: Trying to stay away from obessessive Humans Vs. Zombies players. Oh my grilled cheesus, they've been ridiculous. I was a zombie (became a corpse Wednesday morning) and I was threatened at every time I went outside by a bunch of random humans. I wasn't even looking to tag anyone! I just wanted to go to my room or go to the dugout to get food! Humans have been dragged out of safe zones, people have been knocking their books out of their arms so someone can come from behind and push-the-hell-out-of-them/tag them, and it had gotten to the point that I didn't want to play anymore. So I didn't. Tuesday I decided to "starve myself to death" and so I died at 3am on Wednesday. It gave me such a relief knowing that I wasn't going to be attacked by over paranoid humans.

Those are basically it. I have one more episode of season two of Merlin to watch, which I'm hoping to look at around 4pm today. I finally watched the Mash-Off episode of Glee yesterday. I almost cried for Santana. That's all I'll say if others haven't seen it yet.

Funny Poetry About Sex

Must finish philosophy homework before watching Merlin! Gah, but who wants to read an entire article about torture? I sure don't.



Anywho, I'm still alive for Humans vs. Zombies. Got a guy I know since last year, but he's not planning on playing as a zombie so I really just helped him quit the game. Works for me though! And I saved a couple of my friends.

I just came back from a meeting of the literary magazine of the college I go to. I submitted a few poems and once again they've all been shot down. I was hoping we would talk about it but since they didn't even get enough votes for Round One, we didn't discuss. I was really hoping to find out why they didn't like my poems. I was confused on what they were looking for, what they find interesting...until today. Apparently, the ones that get an automatic yes (have enough votes to surpass the rounds and just gets put into the book without discussion) are the funny ones, the ones about sex, the ones about penises, the ones that are funny and about penises, and the super philosophical ones.



I don't write any of those types of poems. I don't think I ever will. I might try a "philosophical" one but it's just not my style. I feel like I'll never be able to get my poems in the book because I don't write what the board finds interesting. I'm not funny. Plain and simple. I don't and won't write about penises. I might write about sex but it will probably not be obvious or what I'm writing about will symbolize sex. I don't know.

I submitted ones about love, an imagery poem about a fallen angel being trapped, and something else that right now I can't remember. But the ones I mentioned were my favorite and I thought they would like. But apparently not.

I'm not going to give up though. Just because they don't like it doesn't mean others don't either. But this constant rejection from not only the literary magazine but life in general is really getting me down.

Saturday: Zombies Continue

I noticed I forgot to mention class registration. That was a week or so ago. Remember that sociology class, History of Social Thought? Yeah, I didn't get in but neither did Jane. I'm not sharing any classes with her either so yay for that! I just don't have time for people copying my work. What classes I am taking are Writing Fiction, Seminar on Creative Writing: Poetry, Social Statistics, and Romantic Literature. Plus two PE courses of bowling and social dance. It's going to be a busy semester come January.

Now to today: With me being a zombie I have to feed/tag someone at least every 30 hours or I die of starvation and become a corpse. I ended up tagging one of my friends so I have until tomorrow at 8pm before I'm dead. You can join a pack of zombies and share your kills so if one of my friends gets someone they'll share with me and I'll stay alive a bit longer, and vice versa. It's hilarious though. Everyone is running and screaming. We cornered this one guy but we were going to let him go 'cause he just wanted to eat dinner but another zombie came behind him and tagged him. Poor kid.

Went to see the movie Friends with Benefits, which they were showing here on campus. It was a pretty good movie. I enjoyed it. Made me wonder would I be willing to do that and I realized no. Even if it wasn't sex, like I just made out with the guy, I still don't think I would do it. I would probably become emotionally attached. No, I know I would.

Is it sad that I consider it? But I don't want just the physical. I actually do want to be in a real relationship. I've never been in a relationship, or been on a date. I feel kind of pathetic really. I don't understand what's wrong with me. One guy in high school said he had doubts or whatever, and the one here in college freshman year wasn't over his ex. But if you're not over her, why come to me? And then the guys I'm attracted to because of their personality and looks, they want nothing to do with me. Actually, they end up liking one of my friends. She is literally boy crazy. Every time she thinks a guy is cute, she'll go into stalker mode and obsesses about him for weeks. Then she'll find another guy she likes and it continues. It annoys me, but I'd never say that.

I just...I want to meet a guy who likes to hang out with me, just chat, watch movies, just everyday stuff, even study together. I'd like to cuddle on the couch while we watch Pirates of the Caribbean or Harry Potter. I'd like to be able to look at him and he'll give me his goofy smile and I can't help but smile back. I'd like to know everything I could possibly know about him and he about me. I'd like him to trust me with his secrets and dreams, and I'd like to share my dreams with him. Is that too much?